Friday, June 30, 2006

I stole this one from d's blog also. Quite profound.... maybe...

You scored as Healer. You are a Healer Empath. You take in the energy of others and transmute it. You trigger transformation in others and free trapped energy. You are capable of great healing abilities. You walk between the worlds and bring waves of healing energy with your presence. (from "The Book of Storms" by Jad Alexander















Fallen Angel


What Kind of Empath Are You?
created with

Friday, June 23, 2006


It feels as though I've not had any good, restful sleep in a long time now. Even when b is away I sil have to be up at seven in the morning to have him come back. It feels as though I am becoming quite grumpyfied and irritable. This might also be another reason why B is being a little arsehole at the moment.

I have also started a claim against my bank for unfair charges. Something I should have done a long time ago, just finding the motivation to get it started has been a bug bare. It might prove fruitful as it has been known on several occasions that they have charged me more than my allowance I get a week obviously then escillating in a downward spiral of not being able to afford anything .. bleh.. too long to go into detail, just something else thats bothering me of late.

If I feel I want to talk a bit later on here I shall if not i'll sleep. as long as I'm up intime to see imogen booted off big brother.. all will be just dandy.

So for now, brown cow. I bid the fare well..

Thursday, June 22, 2006


Today I have been irritable. Bored. Lacking of motivation. Even found it hard to raise a smile. I am hoping it is just down to the stress of yesterday and being incredibly tired so I am going to bed now.. and trying to catch up on a few z's.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I have figured it out

Today I have been very stressed out. At my wits end with B. At times like last week. he can be an absolute angel to be around, like falling in love day by day with him. But then he shows his other side of being gemini by being a little sod.

The teachers tell me there were 'a few incidents' today. One of which he ended up receiving a donk on the noggin and a discolouration under his eye. Fisticuffs apparently. although I don't believe a word as he hits like a pansy girl. But if he is provoked he does let that person know about it, his kicks have been that of his namesake of a kung-foo lengend since he was in my womb and his blows can leave nasty welts if he choose to be brutal. So if he had a couple of bumps I am sure the other lad/s have come off slighty worse for wear also.

But also she said that there was a rather 'disturbing' incident where he.d got a lump of playdough and was stabbing it quite feircly with a knife and started saying doggies kill rabbits like this while he was shaking his teeth as thought he'd got something in his mouth.

I did go red, as when the teacher told me he'd started stabbing... I immmediately though.. oh fuck.. he's threatened another child.. But thankfully.. not.

I could only put this last 'disturbing' incident down to an incident which happened about a week of so ago.

He got a new hamster from a friend of mine whose friend hadn't wanted anymore. Cutting a long story short B thought the hamster and his dog might like to play (this I assumed) which resulted in hamster fighting for breath and dying and a very pleased looking doggy who thought he'd caught an intruder. SIGHS. DEEP BREATH. sadly not for the newly deceased hamster.

I didn't get angry. I didn't shout at either dog or child. But still I had to seperate all three. and then calmly allow the dog to know he was ok and that I wasn't angry with him, then make sure the hamster was indeed ko'ed.. god knows what I'd have done if I'd have had to put it out of its misery.. don't think even I could have handled that. Bugs, small things that get under my feet fine.. but a little mammal? Nah.. it'd have been very hard. Possibly even me ringing my dad up to come and do it out of mine and B's sight.

Then obviously sit down with B and explain to a sobbing, heartbroken youngster what had just happened. That was possibly one of the hardest things I have had to do, I mean he has delt with death of his previous hamsters before.. but that was when we found them legs up.. and understands that when things/people are dead that they aren't coming back, not after he'd just witnessed something having it's life tragically taken from it. One minute being alive, the next souless.

So anyway I told the teacher about this and she thought it could also be what he was doing, just reliving it in some way.

Soo.... in conclusion.. well maybe a last ditch attempt at normality I have figured it out I NEED TO GO OUT AND GET A LITTLE BIT TIPSY.. let my hair down. Maybe act like a drunken teen for a few hours and let stuff out my system.. again. Something which every morning after concludes with 'I aint doing that again... ' Need to destress.

Everyone is growing up!!!!!

Well so it seems, Yesterday I had two brilliants bits of news.

I opened my mail and in it was an invitation to teh wedding of a very good friend of mine, I have known her for the best part of maybe 12 years.... she and I have some VERY interesting stories tucked up into our belts... forever may they stay wonderful in excitement and fun.

But bugger me if she hasn't gone and finally done, it. Set a date and is finally settling down with a man she loves. She has been engaged a few times and the joke has always been she was more of an antique ring colelctor than a fiance lol But GOOD on her!!

And then last evenign I was chatting with my good friend P. And she tells me she is also getting married next year!!! Something she has been wantingwith her man for some time now and I am so chuffed for all of them.

All these people deserve all the best luck in the world. And just hearing the excitement in tones form conversation I am dead chuffed to be in their circle of friends on the celebratery level.

Just been thinking how wierd it is lately that I am still kinda exploring avenues.. lol and I stil feel way to young to setlle properly with anyone.. very strange feeling.. but it puts thigns in perspective when you get news like that.

Thats all I wanted to say. I won't be able to get to the first mentioned bride~to~be's wedding as it is in Vegas and I am just not able to get there. So I just wanted to say how proud I am of her and her soon to be husband and I wish them both all the luck in the world.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Not at all like Grace..... but don't get me going on Big brother!

You Are 34% Bitchy

You're a pretty sweet person, and you're definitely not prone to bitchy outbursts.
Sometimes, though, you can't help thinking mean thoughts about people. But at least you don't act on them!

Well, who'd know..

Your Reputation Is: Maneater

You're the kind of girl all the chicks hate...
And guys are both scared of you yet strangely drawn in.

Haha I loved the last line on this one mwahahaha

You are a Buff Girl!

You've got a boomin' body and a fearless spirit.
Most guys have trouble keeping up with your energy and fitness level.
Competitve and fun loving, you're up for almost anything.
Make sure you pick a guy who doesn't mind getting beaten by a girl!

Uncanny.... well.. maybe not lol

Your Element is Wood

Your power colors: green and brown

Your energy: generative

Your season: spring

Like a tree, you are always growing and changing.
And while your life is dynamic, you are firmly grounded.
You have high morals and great confidence in yourself and others.
You have a wide set of interests, and you make for intersting company.


Have been quite lathargic for a week or so now, Maybe the excitement and buzzing from playing recently has worn me down, that and running around after my little lad who turned four on the 3rd of June.. He has since actually become better to handle, maybe lulling me into a false sense of security or maybe he has started to grow up and able to communicate things a lot better with me.

But tired I am all the same. I know that there are certain things which get to me to sleep, scratching of my back.. a good orgasm.. that kinda thing.. but these things in themselves are rareities these days. Need to find myself someone fairly decent on the eye, tall, handsome, well mannered, well groomed and fun to be with who is comfortable with my lifestyle as it is. Someone who would be ok with me seeing them for maybe at most one night a week. This is possibly to be put in one of those small potholes called 'impossible scenario'. Just like the 'nillas call finding Mr/Mrs perfect....

Plus due to lack of activity through injuries and singledom I am now a little bit of a porker if I say so myself, still fitting in my 12's, just not as loose as they were a few weeks back lol So maybe this is a plea.... is there anyone out there willing to take me on?? lol

I can hear them running to the hills already ;o)

Oh well, worth a try :o)

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Time for a beer

I am now going to go outside with a lunatic mutt. The Sun. and a beer. Should be interesting :o)

Oh and I did forget something..

I still have the remote in my posession, he has to earn it back ;)

A trip to London

Coffee Cake and Kink

F and I had previously descussed a day out to London a few months back, just for a natter, as when we met it was always a rushed affair at a munch or at the meet and greet I do for people just beforehand. Never really anytime to properly descuss with him what he'd like to know about the lifestyle. So we took the Friday just gone (as he was on holiday for a week, and I was without B) to spend some time chatting.

Now as things had developed between the two of us since our first chat about our day out had happened there were so many more things to descuss than it was origionally thought about.

What is it with my boys? they ALWAYS~without fail~drop themselves in it by inadvertantly telling me things through normal conversation such as.. what toys they have or maybe what they like.. SO when F told me he had a vibrating butt plug AVEC REMOTE SENSOR... well.... I am sure the avid followers of my thoughts thus far will know exactly what I thought.... BRING IT ON :D

So he'd previously already been given a nice tight pair of purple thongs and was instructed to wear these.. along with this said plug. He was to meet me on the train into London and then hand the remote over to me. :o) Needless to say I was rather glad when he did....

While on the train however I did manage to attract a 'norman' who sat by me.............

Getting back to it.. after 'norman' had vacated the seat F sat besides me and presented this tiny remote to me so naturally I had to investigate how it worked....

He has a wondeful smile as it is, but in public and with something shoved up his arse (when he doesn't even know if I'd allow it to be taken out) this smile was something else :D Think in laymens terms he was excited but shitting himself.

I pressed the little doodab and well lets just say it worked. It was quite an obvious buzz... and it could also actually be heard if you know what you'd be hearing. The guy who sat in front of us~swigging what seemed to be the nicest smelling beer right then~also smiled, he must have thought something was up.. either that or I just bring guys to blush without working at it lol

This button got accidently pushed quite a few times. I don't know why my finger kept slipping.... F just sat there unable to speak sometimes, he was feeling the little plug push further and further into his rectum and there wasn't a sodding thing he could do :o) He was rather relived when we got to our destination, however every step he took he was smiling generously.

I accidently again kept the thing switched to on while we walked and chatted with a coffee round some of the streets of London (and singing the song now in my head) and we found that it has a range... if F moved towards me he giggled liike a little girl and wlaked like a duck.. and when he moved further away he'd calm down a little and start walking only as if he'd farted and had a small something left in his shorts lol

So.. obviously I had to be sure he was within distance for most of the time.

Reluctantly when we got to Coffee Cake and Kink I allowed him to have a small amount of respite, he'd not done to badly, this had been the longest he'd worn the device since it's purchase.. so he told me anyhow ;o) We had a marvelous ice coffee. The waitress in there was really lovely. Very standoffish in a way but also quite friendly also.. hard to explain, But she was lovely. This was my first visit to Coffee Cake and Kink and I saw some of the artwork that they had downstairs, F knew the girl so he stood chatting to her for a small time while I went through some lovely imagery in a couple of books.

F came back to the table sat down and jumped.. I pissed myself laughing.. My finger slipped again on that remote... and he was vibrating on the wooden chair :)) I thought it was an absolute hoot. He'd also completely forgotten the train of thought he has started addressing on arrival at the table :o) I really don't know why. *whistles innocently* Hehe But I also made him sit like it until I could no longer laugh at the childish vibrations on the chair..... and yes people... it did take a long time to diminish.

After I'd have my fun we agreed to go for lunch. F's treat. We headed towards Wagamamas where I told him he could be free of the plug as we should really have that chat we fully intended on having and I didn't need him being distracted as fully as he'd been during the day so far.

Dinner was lovely. Fell in love with the breaded prawns and ginger chiken noodle stuff.. but eyes bigger than belly we both stopped half way through to bloat.

Our chat was comfortable I think for him. We descussed a lot of things which previously he hadn't been able to for one reason or another. We seem to be getting along very well right now and as with everyone I have chatted to in the past, he feels able to open upto me and he also knows that what is said to me in confidence stays there... so there's not going to be any nitty stuff on here!! lol Just in case you were wondering.

After dinner we headed home. Both a little exhausted from the heat and from being about two stone heavier. Coffee and noodles to blame. Cheers F for a wonderful day.

Lets see what the next adventure conjures up :o)

Saturday, June 17, 2006

A 'surprise' visit..

We were just generally chatting on line as you do when F suddenly said he'd like to be infront of me, naked at that moment. Ditto went the reply from me.. very eager again to see his beauty.. " I can be there in half hour".. obviously my very simple tasks for him had been getting to him "Be here by ten past two at the latest then.... what ya waiting for?"

The moment I sent the last one back to him he signed out of the messanger and I started busying myself with ideas as to what I could do to him when he arrived. He had already told me about his toy collection and since we have been playing I have descovered a lot of his desires.. very very exciting they are too. Not things I generally come across from a boy. Apart from the like normal things suck as boundary pushing and sensuality of true submission. Ropes strap-ons etc.

So I made a small pile besides where I would be playing with him of some of my own toys. Ready for when he arrived.

On my back door I laid out two blindfolds ready for when he arrived to put on. Which he did soon after I had finished laying the bits out. Someone was VERY eager to see how I'd use them in an off-the-cuff experiment.. and was I arguing?? hehe of course not :D

"Here you go," I said as he turned up handing him the blindfolds, held his hand and then lead him upto my room where I stripped him of his society endeering uniform to reveal his form. Nerves seemd to be eminating from every one of his pores. The slightest touch from me sent shivers right through his hyper excited body.

He had on the uniform which I had given him previously.. a nice tight purple thong.. looked very restricting.. nicely so :D

I stoked his body a lot just to start the sensations going for him properly.. just haven't the smallest stroke over his back made the goosebumps raise like they were mini volcanoes ready to erupt. Wonderful.

I had been smiling for a fortnight and we finally had a good moment to ourselves away from our 'nilla responsabilities and I was going to use every part of this hour slot to it's fullest.

I stood behind him and gently bent him over while pulling on his thong, wedgie style. Got him kneeling on my bed and with hands behind his neck I cuffed him in place. Still running my hands very gently over his quivering person, with the odd tweek of the thong, he was starting to make those really aphrodisiarchial noises... in themselves music to my ears.

He had to stay in that position a while so I could prepare myself for what would be his cherry popping day.

Gloves on with a snap.

Lube covering fingers with splodges.. making as much 'noise' as I could with everything just to heighten his senses.

Lifted the back part of his thong away and went in with fingers.. I have a good teqnique so I have been told before so I wasn't worried that my new virgin would be harmed in anyway. More confident infact that he was going to be shown how it is done properly rather than seeing someone inexperienced or unable to do something like this without taking time and doing it right.

Ran my hands again over his body being careful not to use any of the lube for an unintended purpose and then slipped my fingers into him carefully exposing his liitle man lump and caressing it gently at first and then when the signs were right went into him like a whore on heat. Wonderful.. I used him for a while and he was just gagging for more.. a good little slut does it best :D I was constantly telling him how well he was dong and how pleased I was with him.

I let F stay a while after I had come out of him before uncuffing him and showing him some tenderness which all good boys and girls get if they have behaved well :o)

Shame we didn't have too long.. but then also.. glad it was a nice quick session also :D

Thursday, June 15, 2006



All terms for which I have thought I may have been for years and years now. It is figuring out if I am in this catagory or not practically now.

I know I am able to have affection for more than one at once, it has happened in my past. But it is something I really have to figure out how well it would work considering my lifestyle choices I have made so far.

I am VERY aware of the fact that no ONE person can fulfil anothers complete desires but it is very hard to find myself thinking that I could be a prospective 'one of those strange outdated community dwellers, who may have more than one wife' kinda thing. I guess in a way this is how people who haven't come out yet feel.. whether they are gay or in some sort of kink itself.

I wouldn't be worried about people knowing, it is more to do with the inner thoughts that surround these notions I am noticing come more and more to the surface.

I know I have a lot of goals I want to reach and fully embrace before my time is through in this ol' world. But I still have yet to feel fully complete. I have done so much so far and done more than most. I am very confortable with who I am and how I am. I just feel a huge void constantly really something that is missing. And I still as yet do not know what this is. Hence why I have been resigning myself to wandering thoughts about why things don't work in relationships for me and what I could possibly either a) be doing wrong or b) know what I need to do to be happy.

I am not saying my life so far isn't fulfilled in certain ways but I know I could just do a lot more with it to make myself feel not-so-empty in small ways.

I sat today, after a wonderful afternoon with F,(I will blog about that in a moment) just contemplating how wonderful it would be to be in a 'relationship' of sorts with someone (or people) again. It has been well over a year since I clicked with someone which was mutually chemical and that ended completely out of the blue and still really don't know why. But have since just got on with things. But also maybe subconsiously comparing others to this. Thats the only reason I could come up with anyhow lol it maybe complete bollocks lol

So mood for the moment and afternoon since F went home... contemplatious and laid back.

Ok, i lied.. these were funny

You Are 64% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

You Are 84% Gross

Ewwww! You really have some disgusting habits.
Now go take a shower... with extra soap.

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.
For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.
You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.
And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

Your Observation Skills Get A B-

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)
And it takes something big to distract you!

You Are Strength

You represent both fiery energy and steadfast will.
You are innocent and naive - yet unafraid and undaunted.
Perhaps you don't have the most powerful physical strength...
But your mental powers make up for any amount of muscle.

Your fortune:

Lately, you have been a pillar of ethics and moral strength.
And while things may be difficult, your faith in yourself will come through.
You may need to conquer the animalistic nature of yourself or others, with gentle force.
Although this may seem like the darkest hour for you, victory is near.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Munch Bunch BBQ

Well wasn't the weather wonderful? I think I had about thirty people in all come along this year for the annual munch bunch BBQ.

Was a very relaxed affair this year, Got everything planned and dealt with well if I do say so myself, obviously with the help of some boys previous to the event and also on the day itself. Thanks have been given to the respective persons and how greatful I am for their help they are very aware.

Some new faces who I had not yet met turned up which was lovely as it was really just a more glamourous munch type affair.

I did well with the catering this year am very pleased with how much I didn't have to give away to the neighbours or throw this year hehe. Something which was noted pleasingly :o)

Although something did surprise me with one chap that turned up. We chatted a couple of days later when our times crossed that he assumed I was sub..... lol I just straightly told him to just descuss this theory with some more of the munchers at some point hehe. Bless his little innocent ways ;o)

I think one of the pinacles for me on Sunday was my TEA AND SCONE buffet... may sound quite old fashioned and possibly a tad outdated... except the furniture was spectacularly wonderful... Yes I had a 'live' buffett table.

F and I had chatted quite a bit since Tuesdays munch and; as all subs do, dropped himself in it by telling me a few of his fantasies. One including something similar to a sushie girl. I knew I could incorporate this within the BBQ at some point.

So after a smal amount of alchololic liquid was downed by everyone and the buffet of hots stuffs namely BBQ or rather charcoaled chicken and other food stuff was near on finished I took F upstairs and stripped him. It was the first time I seen his nakedness, and it was lovely.

He does look good even though he is older than me hehe. Beautiful smile, nice body, smooth and elegant but at the same time, when he holds me, is quite masculine. I put a pair of nice purple tight thongs on his crotch and wrapped his expanded manhood and groin in clingfilm.. (you have to expect some sort of health and safety don't you ;) lol) And got him dressed again. Lead him downstairs to the marquees. Making sure the area was free from people as I hadn't actually told anyone about this wonderful surprise. Proceeded to undress him. Obviously now we had a few onlookers :D F was shitting himself, but also absolutely glorifying himself being put in this position.

I then called out for everyone to come and get their scones.. with cream.. which a few haphazardly dropped dollops on his skin... and without need they were very good at "cleaning" their mess up ;) F loved this and was beaming wonderfully. A couple of Domme friends of mine took particular delight in accidently spilling their cream over his smooth skin. And delighted in nibbling him and making his body tingle with those sensations.

I was beaming with pride for him, with him and I just was just so proud. I let him cool down a bit emotionally and hugged him a few times after everyone had finished their 'desert'. Made him a cup of tea... maybe should have got him to do the honours but my neighbours may have got more of an eyeful than they were bargening for hehe.

Afer some lovely entertainment namely a banjo/ukalale player that I had unknowinlgy in my guest list and also some lovely bare naked ladies that were being delt with by some Dom friends of mine I took F back upstairs to chat with him properly.

We hadn't really descussed him and myself being anything more than friends but that afternoon confirmed that he (after a lot of my own soul searching) would be someone I'd like to call my own.. in a manner of speaking. He said his heart fluttered at me asking him if he'd consider the role of one of my boys. Also confirming my taste for wanting to collect myself a stable of men and maybe women again now. It has been quite some time as I have said before.

Having F as I had the last week or so has just been amazing and I am glad he has experienced these new things with me. I intend on pushing his limits and my own in ways I only have talked about with people before.

A lovely begining to a prospectful mutually agreeable 'relationship'.

Welcome to my collection F. xx

Sensations Munch

I decussed this idea with a couple of other group members to hold a 'sensations' themed munch this month and it turned out to be an absolute hoot!

We had an excellent turn out and the food again was lovely, people were just mingling and enjoying themselves.. and then there was F. Someone I had been getting a little more closer to for a while than we had both possibly said about openly but still all the same we share a certain click and rapport which is handy when you wanna play with someone.

He's not a bad looking guy and has a good head on his shoulders, tall and VERY easy to talk to and get along with... As it seems with all men I tend to want to deal with, this situation also has it's complications. I am not going to desclose any further info on this. Except to say I broke him in alongside little-boots in his first experience of being Dom/med.

It was amazing. Smiles from start to finish. We started by putting a peg zip on his nipple and chest area and I told him to just breath and enjoy... I stripped him of his shirt and LB and I then preceeded to use toold such as a pin wheel and feathers on him.

He then got told to bend forward and to just stay a while... LB and myself both were thinking right along the same tracks as we both went off to find candles and ice lol I tend to be able to read things very well and people tend to bounce quite happily off me also.

We dripped ice and hot wax onto his naked back for a while.. making lovely patterns and just hearing a small quivering and moaning every so often of excitement. When we'd grown tired of this. I gave LB my new hunting knife to peel the wax from F's body. Along with my new raptor claw he was just one very happy bunny. Obviously checking on this boy all the time throughout I did bend down to watch his face and it was just glowing, you cannot pay for that kind of pleasurable experience, both sides.

He was cooled down with a car polisher and then told to sit a while and cool down.. I had warned him how he'd be feeling and he was just in his element. We got a jacket and wrapped this around him. He couldn't stop huggin LB and myself and I couldn't tell you whose smile was the biggest. But they were fantastic :o)I was so proud of him. And was so honoured really to be part of his first real life kinkyness.

Makes it all very worth while :o)

Friday, June 09, 2006

Last one for a while but interesting...

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

On a happier note.. (maybe I should give the blogthings a rest for a fortnight lol)

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.
You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

Rather macabre blogthings.....

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"So, you're a cannibal."

You Will Die at Age 76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

This one just made me die..... of laughter.. have a go, if you're that bored :o)

Your Deadly Sins
Gluttony: 40%
Lust: 40%
Sloth: 40%
Greed: 20%
Pride: 20%
Envy: 0%
Wrath: 0%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 23%
You'll die from food poisoning - and then the natives will feast on your fatty limbs.

It has been a while since I did this, so you'd have to ask "close" friends if this is correct hehe

You're a Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play
You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party
Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare
And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Wonderful day... could go either way..

I am in a calm and subdued mood today, not really sure quite why though. But also I have a huge amount of pent up energy waiting to rear it's (sometimes) ugly head out of my system and escape.. so tonight munch could really go either way. Whatever happens I am sure I'll get to enjoy myself one way or the other :o) There have been a few Birthdays also since I saw the crazy kids last so there will be a few cards given out.

I am really looking forward to catching people up and having a laugh. So I just hoe the turn out is good :)

6 6 6

The day has finaly arrived, where parents of the unborn dread their little Damiens popping out expecting Lucifer himself to turn up as their birthing partner.

The day which the OMEN is released across cinemas sparking curiosity as to why they didn't just use the older version as this one is said to be a little..... dire.

The day of the Cammunch... what surprises are in store I wonder... Well good food and friendly faces for sure.. And a few little devils ready to get to work, I know it has been a while that I've done anything lol so I have already warned one chap he maybe used ... just a little tiny.. eenie weenie bit.. this evening to show how I'd use certain stuffs to create a few tingles :o)

But yet again Bielzibob has given us some beautiful weather as long as the garden forks don't come shooting across the garden at me or the panes of glass from the greenhouse don't decapitate me. I think today will go without a hitch hehe.

But what a day.. I ill report on any unusual happenings :D I am going to be scouring things and noting them down all day.. Should be amusing to play a few pranks on people. Bit like an APRIL fools day.. but a little more grimier :D Mwahahahaha.

Monday, June 05, 2006


I have been so very tired and migranes have settled in and gone almost as quick as I can say that they have done so. Usually means there might be a storm brewing somewhere somehow.. just haven't really seen any rain for a fews days, the weather has been absolutely spiffing and well things have just plodded along seemlessly.

Think I am maybe wanting a little excitement now to break the monotonousy of hundrumminess.. I am hoping to meet a few newboes at the Cammunch tomorrow evening. You never know one might actually be of use to me :o) I am not holding my breath as people who I identify with and click with are like trying to find gold at the bottom of a ravine.. mostly finding the stuff made for fools. When finding, I suffer quite often.

It has been sometime since I properly clicked with someone that I thought might go somewhere, could well be near on a year, maybe 18 months ago now. But life has its surprises waiting in the wings. I just hope when it jumps out on me I am ready for the fright hehe.

I am quite tired and it doesn't seem to be getting any better when I wake these days, just going through the motions of every day life, I really need to get me another hobby or a piece of paper with P.T.O. on each side to keep me amused for a few hours.

I've cut my hair recently and unlike samson I haven't differed I just feel like changing more of my asthetics. Maybe by adding a few bits or creating on the blank canvas that is my skin, The possabilities are absolutely endless. Have had ideas for quite some time now. Maybe it is time to start taking action and put into practice what my thoughts have been dealing with for some time.

But for now again I bid thee good night. Sweet dreams.

I am sure the potter fans amongst you wil underastand this, for me confusion prevails.

You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering.

Albus Dumbledore


Remus Lupin


Ginny Weasley


Harry Potter


Hermione Granger


Ron Weasley


Sirius Black


Severus Snape


Draco Malfoy


Lord Voldemort


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Sunday, June 04, 2006

Hayfever is back...

Didn't sleep too well last night, although that wasn;t any surprise as I'd had a hectic few days and I think it's gonna take some time to calm myself down(even though I have another little special party for B on Monday).

My hayfever which hasn't actually been here for a year or so seems to have come back quite strongly, been sneezing like an old man with flu the last few days.. My throat feels as though I have an inflated baloon stuck in there from yesterday and my sinuses are grumbling too. Not sure why the song "When santa got stuck up the chimney" came into my head then....

It Is however a fucking beautiful day again, got plants to plant before they frazzle, a job for the B'man and myself a little later in the day.

But First jobs first.... COFFEE then wait for him to come back from T's so we can open the avalanche of pressents from his guests from yesterday.. and possibly also have the small hissy fit of him eating something before being allowed to go play out in the garden on his new birthday bike.

I'll be back later, my fingers have some itching to take care of :D

"It's a beautiful day.. the sun is shining, I feel good, I feel right, and no-one.. no-one's gonna stop me now.. oh yeah" A wonderful couple of lyrics of a little ditty I sing when the weather is so perfect.

Saturday, June 03, 2006


A word to sum up how I am feeling right now.

My little man's birthday party went really well and with the added bonus of BATMAN turning up (obviously amongst his crime busting activities today) thigns were just as perfect as they could be.

Sun was absolutely glorious, he had a good turn out of friends who came along to help celebrate his FOURTH birthday it just really was from start to finish a pretty great day :D

Now am going to take a few days to relax and enjoy my little man's new year of life and then get ready for the Munch BBQ next weekend :O) Another reason to completely over cater and see happy faces... albeit in a completely different context hehe!!!

Now to rest up and TRY to get some sleep night all.